Up until a year ago I had a huge problem with anxiety. I didn’t know what to do. So I turned to something that I thought might help, marijuana. What I found was that not only did it save my life, but it got rid of my anxiety problems almost completely.
Before I started medicating I felt like the world was crumbling from under my feet. The whole world was spinning but I was frozen in time. Stuck in a place that I couldn’t get out of. I’d have panic attacks each day, my longest panic attack was 8 hours. I had to leave work and go home to calm myself down. It was to the point where I was hyperventilating, sweating, throwing up, and many other anxietal symptoms. It was hard, I just felt like I wanted to die and that at this rate I would.
I discovered the use of medical marijuana just last year in August. The first time I medicated was amazing. I felt that anxiety that was always with me flow out of my body. When the marijuana wore off, I still felt good. So every few days I’d medicate to get rid of the anxiety and depression I was experiencing. Do I consider it an escape of reality? Of course not, it helped me to think more clearly, focus, and relax, which I didn’t do often.
As I continued my medical use I found my anxiety was still bad, but it was decreasing my overall amount of anxiety a lot. I found myself more happy in general. Not having to fear severe panic attacks was a big step for me.
Several months later I found that my anxiety was only occurring once or twice a week at the most. I felt liberated, liberated from the anxiety that was holding me back from life. The drinking I had been doing to feel numb was no longer an issue. I could finally make phone calls, which I was very afraid of doing before. I was being more social, more outgoing. Where as I used to coop myself up in my room and try to cope with my anxiety, now I was finally living my life the way I wanted to.
It has now been almost a year since I’ve started medicating with the use of marijuana and I feel fantastic. I barely get attacks, maybe once every other week or less. When I get them they are not nearly as strong as they used to be. I feel less on edge. I can finally work a job without it impacting my daily life.
Before I started medicating I couldn’t hold a job. I would start one and have a panic attack so bad that I would quit and never come back after just four hours of being there. Well that’s not me anymore, now I can hold a job and be confident that I’m not going to get a severe attack.
I will not let anxiety take over my life anymore. I won’t let it infringe on my day, or make me isolate myself in my room. It’s just not happening, I won’t be a victim. I was at one point, but not anymore. Marijuana saved my life, and I don’t regret the choice I made.