As I was making this blog, I was so obsessed with the layout, my summary, basically how everything would look. Now that I’m just about done I can say the one thing that I didn’t think about was the first topic that I would write about. First of all, please excuse my writing skills, they honestly aren’t the greatest and could be better. So I guess I’ll start out with why I made this blog.
I’ve always thought that it would be a great idea to get my life out in some form of writing. I feel I have so much life advice to offer. Especially for people struggling with mental illness. I feel that in my short 20 years of living so far, that I have never gotten a chance at a fair life. I sit and wonder when my life will start being worth living. As life goes on for me I continue to be diagnosed with serious mental disorders. Thousands of dollars go to my medical bills, all of which I can barely afford (honestly can anyone afford medical bills these days?). I’ve already declared that my life doesn’t feel worth living, so then I ask myself, WHAT would make it worth living? I’m still looking for the answer. But, what I’m finding is that I just want to feel a sense of sanity. As time goes on I can feel it degrading, crumbling in my hands and the scariest part is, there is nothing I can do about it.
To the people who know me. There are a lot of rather sensitive topics that I will be talking about, ones that you may have never known about me. All I’m going to say is, you honestly can never really know a person. They can live their whole lives without ever showing you who they really are. You could be friends with someone who seems like they’re the happiest person in the world, but the first thing they do when they get home is cry, drink to forget, get high to take the pain away, or think about how to just end it all. It’s a sad life to live but unfortunately too many people must deal with it on a daily basis.
I’m hoping this can become something that really helps people. All the mistakes I’ve made, the things I’ve been through, if even just one person reads the things I’ve written and finds it helpful, then I will be content.
Thanks for taking the time to read my first blog post. I hope you’ll stick with me as I write about my endeavors.